Nigerian artiste, Modupe-Oreoluwa Oyeyemi popularly known as Mo Cheddah has revealed that she once battled depression to the point of considering jumping off the Third Mainland Bridge in Lagos.
The 28-year-old, who made the revelation during an interview with DANG Magazine said she got a hostile reception from older colleagues in the music industry when she got into the industry.
“I was coming from a naive, God-fearing family and I went into the world of adults and I was thrown into a jungle and people did not care if I was 16, they attacked me. The industry was hostile.
“I would be performing and they would turn off my microphone because the A-list artist doesn’t like me. There was one day I looked at my mum and told her ‘you taught me everything about love but you did not teach me to hate’.
“I don’t know why she did not but the truth is there is hate in the world. So I went into the industry thinking everybody loved everybody. I didn’t understand that hate,” Mo Cheddah said.
Explaining her abrupt exit from the music scene, Mo Cheddah said people did not care to read and understand her side of the story when she left she left her record label, KnightHouse records in February 2012.
“The day I won the Channel O award, that was around when Twitter came out and people I knew started dragging me online. People started asking why I won the award, people starting questioning me and carrying stories around me,” she said.
“What broke me was that when I left my label. People chose to pick sides and obviously it wasn’t mine. I felt as if I had failed especially because I had thought that business will pick up. They had so much hate for me.
“They started bad-mouthing me to people, to companies, to producers, so I was kind of blacklisted. They wanted to do everything in their power to ruin me and I felt God forsook me, sadness consumed me
“I googled ‘there is this darkness inside me’ and I saw a lot of people had it, they were talking about depression. The only reason I did not kill myself, first, I didn’t know how I will kill myself. I thought about it so many times.
“I thought of drowning myself in Third Mainland Bridge. At times I wanted it to be quick, so I will be praying that God should just kill me. All I had to do was understand that as long as I was at peace with this person, every other thing will be ok. I live to be happy.”
Mo Cheddah, who broke into the music scene at 16 years with a feature on ‘Won Beri’ currently runs a fashion house called Mo Cheddah.com, a brand she also uses to counsel young girls.